It feels good to serve. A lack of control in the bedroom can be fun and relaxing. Being with a dominant person wouldn't be a bad idea.
And the second time around:
You Scored as Exhibitionist / Voyeur
Watching or being watched is an arousing notion to you. There are many reasons why people enjoy this fetish. Being uncomfortable. Feeling guilty. Appreciation. For some it could simply be sex in public because there is a fear of getting caught. Either way, it turns you on. The best venue for this would be group sex.
Exhibitionist / Voyeur 100%
Degradation Lover 82%
And the results side by side:
I think it's interesting to "see" how I've evolved over the last several months. I had always secretly had exhibitionist/voyeuristic fantasies. I remember being around 17 or 18 and having these strong desires and fantasies. I remember "accidentally" letting the curtains open and purposely walking in front of the windows when I was only half dressed while I fantasized that I was being watched. And being extremely aroused by it. The difference between now and then is that I refused to admit or even acknowledge I had those fantasies. I was ashamed and embarrassed by it. I will at least admit it now. I am no longer ashamed, but I still feel deeply embarrassed by it. I struggle with those feelings. I wish I could be more free to just enjoy it. But maybe it is the shame and embarrassment that I've been enjoying. Or perhaps both. I'm still figuring that out. All I know is that I love when my Sir "forces" me into situations that put me on display. I love when he talks dirty to me. I love when he says degrading things to me. I love when he makes me feel dirty. I love that I don't have to be vanilla.